Some days I wake up and feel like I am in someone else's life. It's as if I left my life back in 2009 and have found a completely new one in 2011. So much has changed between then and now that I get confused with my own thoughts and desires.
It's been a long time since I have blogged. I guess I could blame it on crazy work days, holidays or having a busy schedule but the truth would be that I simply haven't sat down to a computer with an open heart or open mind to write. I have also failed numerous times to draw or paint. I miss having hours set aside in high school to pour out my feelings and thoughts onto paper. I miss the serenity of an ipod and blank sheet of paper.
I heard a quote today that I can't shake from my mind. "Follow your dreams or you'll work someone who did." I have always felt that working a job you hate isn't worth working. I know people have to work to keep the bills paid or food on the table. I know there are people out there that would give anything to have a 9 to 5 job that would allow them to fulfill their simplest needs. I just grew up watching various family members and friends work jobs that literally affected their health and personal life. I think this is why I have had some troubles nailing down a career path. I decided in my first semester of college that I would follow my dreams and major in sports management. What could be better? Working with professional football players and managing a team with a group of sports fanatics. Then, that same year I decided to change to elementary education because that seemed like a better choice for my family one day. Now, four years later I have decided on nursing because I can work great hours three days a week and make pretty decent money. This quote just shook me because I am not sure if I am following my true dreams or if I am deciding on a career that will allow me flexibility in my finances and schedule. What if everyone did the job/career that they had wanted when they were a child? To tell you the truth if I didn't let money or time limit me I would probably choose to open a bridal shop and sell wedding dresses while running a small art shop on the side. I have always loved the creativity and fairytale that comes with a wedding dress and I am all for personal artistic expression. So what's keeping me from making these dreams come true? I mean there are people all over the place that "did" follow their dreams and start their own business or go out on a limb and open their store. My own husband has been running his business since he was 16 years old. His side job in high school became his life long business and he loves it. What's keeping me from doing something I may love?