Until this point we've only seen your sweet face through a black and white image on a small scratchy screen. I've gotten to listen to your heart beat for a few short minutes but have yet to feel or see you stretch your arms and legs. Our love for you has grown and grown over the past few months but a prayer that we've been praying for a long time has yet to be answered, that is until today.
Before you were ever created, before we ever spoke of your existence we prayed that God would work through our family; that He would build a legacy through us and our children and in the simplest forms, that He would give us the children He wanted us to have. Today we very well may find out whether you are a little boy or little girl and our prayer that God give us His plans in our family will be answered.
We know undoubtedly that He will work in you and through you powerfully whether we see blue or pink today and we will be here fighting to teach you and bring you up in a house that nourishes that. So no matter what happens today we know that our love for our Creator, your Creator and our love for you is just going to get stronger from this day forward. In this moment I can't imagine how it's going to feel to see your face, your arms and legs, to watch you move. Your daddy and I had no idea what we were getting ourselves into when we decided it was time. You have already taken our breath away and brought us to tears many times and I am sure today will be the same. To see the features that God is knitting together and the tiny being that he is building piece by piece is something that I anxiously wait to see.
People always told me that having a baby would teach you about God's love for us and it already is. It's also teaching me about the sacrifice that He made when He sent His only Son to die on a cross for us.
I am so thankful for this quiet moment this morning to sit and enjoy not knowing what you are; to just love you for you and to question whether we are having a son or daughter. Yet in this moment I promise to always love you with this love and a greater love that is yet to grow I am sure. You are mine but much more you are His and I am just the vessel He has chosen to let carry you and parent you in this world. I love my Savior and I love that you are making me a mommy.
May we enjoy these last few hours of not knowing and celebrate when we do learn which path we are about to begin. I can't wait to witness your beauty again today and learn a tiny bit more of what God has for us in this amazing life He's given us.