Catalyst

I will never work out again without taking this first!

I have been doing TurboFire for several months now and anyone that knows anything about TurboFire will tell you that it is an intense cardio workout.  I never questioned whether or not I was getting a good workout because I knew I was based off of the sweat soaking my clothing.  This month, I started TurboFire over again and did it the right way.  I took before pictures and measurements and weighed myself; all so that I can track my progress.  One other thing that I changed was adding Catalyst; a product by AdvoCare; mainly used to keep you from burning your muscle when working out.  This way you trim your FAT instead of your MUSCLE, which you need for definition and strength training.  I have taken it twice now before my workouts and I can already tell that this is a forever product.  Just today, I took Catalyst 10 minutes before working out and throughout my 45 minute intense cardio workout; I found myself with more and more energy and drive to fight through.  After all these months of TurboFire; I have never had such a productive workout as today.  Needless to say, this will become a routine before all of my workouts from now on.

** For information on Catalyst and how you can push your training that much further check out the following website:  https://www.advocare.com/12111068/Store/ItemDetail.aspx?itemCode=T2010&id=A

God Moments

I believe you can hear God and feel God’s presence.  I can name a few times in my life when I simply knew that God was there with me.  It felt as if a warm sensation rushed my body and a peace entered my soul that I knew no human could create.  These experiences are what have birthed an understanding in me that if I ask God repeatedly for His Will to be done in my life; He will instruct me in the ways He would like me to go.  It’s not always easy waiting for a “sign” or an “answer” that may take time and patience (which I lack all the time), but it is worth the moment when I know God is instructing me. 

Last Tuesday, I had a BIG test.  Some may not have seen it as a BIG test, but to me it was.  Simply put, it was a general placement test that every student must take in order to place them in the correct level of classes.  I had been dreading even taking the test and it was literally, a miracle that I even showed up at the campus that morning.  I am a very good talker; by that I mean, I can talk myself out of anything.  I am certainly an easy target for someone to tear me down by discouraging me and doubting me because I will most likely believe what you tell me.  I am a people pleaser at heart, so words are powerful in my life, because what comes out of yours (whether right or wrong) will enter my mind as truth when it is something said about me.  I am working on this every day and hope to continue to please people but not by those standards.  “You can’t please everyone!” 

I doubted my performance on the test because of the time that had passed since I had been a student.  A lot had changed since then and I had trouble remembering algebra and English punctuation.  It should have been simple, but to me it was a true test as to whether or not I could be a student again.  I was taking this test in order to take another test in three months.  That test would allow me to start nursing school which had been a dream of mine.  As of last Tuesday, I was unsure whether I was still making the right decision.  I currently work in a hospital and I love it.  I love interacting with patients (mine which range from newborns to 21 year olds) and being a part of the team that heals people.  However, it hadn’t taken much to discourage me from applying to nursing school with fears that I would never get in.  It was these fears that led me to pray before that test last Tuesday.  I had been researching other careers and really thought that might be the better way to go.  Thinking back, I was really taking this test to prove to myself that I wasn’t good enough for nursing school.  I prayed before the test to God; that He would show me through this test which career I was suppose to pursue.  I promised Him that whichever one it was; I would start pursuing it one hundred percent.  I would work harder than ever to get there because I knew after this test, that it would be His Will.  My exact words to Him, “If I am not meant to go to nursing school, please make me fail this test so bad that I will know that it’s not your Will but if I am meant to be a nurse, make me do so well that I will know that it wasn’t me that was smart enough but that it was you telling me to go forth in nursing.”  That was it; a simple prayer that would end all confusion and possibly give me the answer I had been waiting on. 

After a couple of hours, I had completed the test and took my printed results down to a counselor where she told me whether or not I would be “invited” to take the next test.  The next twenty minutes in her office are what I call “God moments.”  (A time when you know it was all God because there is no way it could have been me)  She reviewed my results and on an index card with the mandatory scores in black ink; she wrote my scores beside them and then turned it around for me to see.  I had gotten nearly perfect scores in every category!  Not only had I reached the mandatory scores but I had gone twenty or so points above.  I couldn’t help but get teary eyed, not because of the scores but because God had come through and told me obviously where He wanted me to be.  That was it; that was all I needed, just a little confirmation from Him to let me know that I could handle nursing school and that I needed to stop being so scared and start doing what He wanted. 

I guess you can make something as big or as little as you want but to me, that wasn’t just a coincidental moment but a God moment.  They don’t always happen so obviously but it’s a time in life when you know God is close and He listens and He just wants to love us and be the One that we turn to.  He’s always capable.

Heart Broken

Everyone experiences heart break. The way people deal with heart break is individual.  Some like to swallow their feelings and push forward immediately, while others focus on every detail of the hurt for weeks before attempting to move on.  Over the years, I have developed a strategy where I prepare for the worst before the worst has happened; that way when it does, I am “prepared.” 

This past August, I thought I had prepared myself for what lay before me.  It was a Monday morning around 3 am when I got a text message from my mom, stating that she and dad were in the ER awaiting treatment for sickness my dad had been struggling with all summer.  My dad, in his mid 50s had been sick for several weeks and had become so dehydrated that he had passed out on his way to bed that morning.  Let me tell you, to hear that my dad; my rock had fallen to his knees and was helpless on the floor left an image in my mind that haunts me.  I went on to work because part of me had already began preparing myself for the worst.  I just knew in my head that I needed to work that day because it may be the last time I work for awhile.  The plan was for my dad to have several procedures done to rule out any major problems.  To be honest, there were several people that I spoke with that had told me; “Meagan, it sounds like your dad has cancer.”  These statements had left me preparing for a diagnosis that would turn my world upside down.  I visited my dad that Monday night in the hospital and returned early the next morning to properly handle this life changing moment in our lives.  I was going to be there when the doctor told us that my dad had cancer and I was going to handle it with grace and dignity and strength.  I was going to be the back bone that my dad needed and the support that my mom would rely on.  As I drove to and from the hospital the next few days, I mentally prepared myself and spoke with God, a lot. 

I didn’t want God to change His plans if this was supposed to happen.  I just wanted Him to prepare and strengthen me.  I needed Him to keep me standing when all I wanted was to collapse.  Most of our conversations in the car that week left me gasping for air and mascara running down my cheeks.   You see, I had learned this worst case scenario strategy, growing up and living through the funeral of my grandparents and great grandparents.  I knew how to put on a brave face in public and crash in private.  I remember this mostly with the passing of my maternal grandmother.  She was my “everything”; she was the light of my life and she poured a love on people that I have only seen come from her.  She had a servant’s heart and focused on the good in people.  I cherish the memories I have of her and look forward to seeing her again in Heaven’s brilliant light.  Her funeral was truly a celebration of life and her accomplishments here, on earth were astronomical.  I was 20 when she passed and once again, wore my “big girl” face in public during her funeral.  I was my mom’s support and took over for her while she grieved her mother’s loss.  So, four years later, I would do the same, handling my dad’s diagnosis.  The problem was that I hadn’t even heard the doctor’s report and I was planning a funeral.  Yes, I said funeral.  All the preparation in my head had left me planning the next 6 months of my dad’s life and the funeral to follow because in my worst case scenario strategy that’s where we would end.  Remember, I didn’t ask God to cancel His plans, just to prepare me for what lay ahead, except, I hadn’t taken time to listen to God while I was asking Him for all these things.  It’s because of this mistake on my part that I believe God allowed me to hear my dad’s diagnosis in the way that I did. 

I returned to the hospital, the morning of dad’s procedure just in time to wish him luck.  As I sat in the hospital room, alone, I prepared and prepared and prepared for what was going to be told that afternoon; when suddenly, the phone rang.  I reluctantly answered, to hear the doctor on the other end say “Everything looks great; we didn’t find anything at all.”  As I hung up the phone and sat in silence in my dad’s hospital room, I remember thinking over all the conversations that I had had with God and how I had done all the talking and pleading and crying over something that was going to happen that in fact, wasn’t even going to happen.  I felt so arrogant that I had been planning the future as if I was in control which reminded me of how small I am because if God wants something to happen, He will make it happen and He doesn’t need or want my approval on the matter. 

The weeks following my dad’s true diagnosis and recovery have been astounding.  My life has changed; not because of a 6-month verdict or funeral but because God used a heart breaking situation to teach me that I am not in control and I cannot prepare for everything that I experience but that I can come to him on my knees and pour everything in front of Him and then listen because He will lead me through whatever is happening in life.  God used an “almost” situation to teach me trust and faith.  I thought I had it all under control; all while God was probably thinking, “You don’t know, you think you have this but without me, you’re creating your own struggle.”  I am so thankful for the lessons God teaches me.

Beautiful Reminder that I am not in Control

My devotional this morning. .  . perfect for women.
 Devotional:  Jesus Calling by Sarah Young


I am the FIRM FOUNDATION on which you can dance and sing and celebrate My Presence.  This is My high and holy calling for you; receive it as a precious gift.  Glorifying and enjoying Me is a higher priority than maintaining a tidy, structured life.  Give up our striving to keep everything under control-- an impossible task and a waste of precious energy.
My guidance for each of My children is unique.  That's why listening to Me is so vital for your well being.  Let me prepare you for the day that awaits you and point you in the right direction.  I am with you continually, so don't be intimidated by fear.  Though it stalks you, it cannot harm you, as long as you cling to My hand.  Keep your eyes on Me, enjoying Peace in My Presence.


Psalm 5:11
Ephesians 3:20-21
Jude 24-25
Joshua 1:5




I feel like as women, we constantly strive for perfection and it consumes most of our time.  Every morning, we're taught to make a to do list and to do whatever we must to check everything off by the end of the night.  We strive for the perfect life, husband, house and we work ourselves to death to be a perfect daughter, wife and mother.  But are we setting our eyes on what God wants and desires for us, or are we looking to what the world asks of us and trying to achieve something that cannot be done and that we, really get very little satisfaction from anyways.  Today, I promise to set my eyes on my Heavenly Father and live today for Him.  I will constantly look to Him to show me what I need to do and how I need to handle the "worldly" stresses that enter my day.

Miss Eva 




On April 29th, we brought our new blue great dane puppy home from Wilmington, NC.  We found her on the internet a month before and knew right away she was exactly what we had been looking for.  We met her breeder half way in Lumberton, NC and brought her home.  She weighed 12 pounds on that day and now, three weeks later, she weighs in at 18-19 pounds.  She is growing so fast.  When we spoke with the breeder before we brought her home, we were told that her eyes would be darker due to her parent's eye color, however, when we picked her up we saw, immediately, that she has those gorgeous blue dane eyes.  I think they will turn grey as she grows, but either way she is absolutely beautiful.  


Casey and I have grown to love the breed.  We had a 9 month old blue great dane that we bought in August 2010 and then had to put down in March 2011 due to health concerns.  So, ever since that time, we've been waiting for the opportunity to bring another dane home.  This little girl, will be an indoor dog.  Yes, she will weigh in at around 150 pounds when she is full grown and we are prepared for the large, clumsy puppy running around but we feel that even though they are one of the largest breeds, she deserves to be indoors with us.  


At this point, we are working on crate training and house breaking.  She has been fabulous.  She has only had a few accidents inside the house, mostly when we haven't been paying attention to her and she hardly whines when put in her crate.  Once she is 9 weeks(which is this week) she will be able to understand and comprehend training a bit better.  The only issue we've had is her teething.  Since she is 8 weeks and cutting puppy teeth and then will turn around and cut adult teeth, she has been nipping at our hands and fingers.  So far, we can give her a toy and she is content but when she is excited, it is much harder to calm her down and refocus her attention.  I hope that as she grows, she will learn that she cannot bite/chew skin and she won't be so aggressive once her adult teeth come in.  


We've also switched her over to adult large breed dog food as of 7 weeks.  Great Danes are different than other breeds; since they grow so fast, they shouldn't have more than 24% protein or 14% fat content.  We feed Eva Blue Buffalo Chicken and Rice formula.  If great danes are fed high protein diets, their muscles and joints can grow too quickly causing other health issues.  At this time, we're also watching her exercise.  We let her jog a bit while outside, but we do not encourage her to rough house or run.  As she is growing so quickly, we'd like for her to be gentle on her joints.  


All in all, she is one great puppy and an amazing companion already.  I will continue to post pictures of her as she grows.  Please message me if you have any questions about the breed or need help with your great dane.  We have loved our little girls and look forward to learning more and more about these beautiful giants.

2012 & My 24th year

Growth

I’ve been meaning to write for so long, but I must admit 2012 is kicking my rear.  It’s been an eventful year so far, some ups and some downs.  In late February, we traveled to FL for a Disney trip with my husband’s family.  It was a great week away from the stresses of work and gave us all memories that we’ll share forever.  After we returned home, Casey and I had to go through the loss of our dog, Bear.  After months of trying to figure out what was wrong with him, we discovered that he had a blood cancer that had over taken his entire stomach/intestine region.  It was an unfortunate circumstance but one that was inevitable. It was only a week or so when we decided, we would have to purchase another dog.  The house had become too quiet and we knew we weren’t ready for the pitter patter of baby feet!  This Sunday we’ll bring home our new little baby, a 6 week old blue great dane named Eva.  She’s already won our hearts through a few pictures so I can’t wait to meet her. 

The past few weeks have been stressful with work and preparing for our new arrival but at the same time they have been so exciting.  I celebrated my 24^th birthday this past Sunday and I entered this 24^th year healthier than I have been in a long time.  Two weeks ago I started a herbal cleanse(my first cleanse ever) in hopes of getting rid of cravings for things like sugar and coffee.  Working 12 hour shifts at a hospital an hour away had created a “need” in my mind for caffeine and sugar packed junk food.  The cleanse lasted 1o days and allowed me to eat regular, healthy food while abstaining from junk, dairy and fried foods.  Over the 10 days, I actually lost 9 pounds and over 2 weeks later, I have kept a healthy diet, started working out and have not drank a single cup of coffee!  My daily diet consists of protein, fruits, veggies and lots of water.  I haven’t lost anymore weight since the end of the cleanse but my desire to sweat has grown tremendously.  All of a sudden, the connection between what you eat and how you live made sense and now I effectively keep track of what I put in my mouth and how often I put on my tennis shoes.  Over the past week, I have completed 7 miles running and over 4 hours of cardio.  Best thing, I have never felt better!  I can only thank my family for their support and the amazing products that have created this desire in my heart! (Advocare and Beach Body) 

So now, it’s Friday night and time to do everything that’s been on my to-do list that got pushed to the side…. dinner, cleaning, laundry and shower! HAHA! I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!

Spring Running Attire

At best, I am a novice runner but I would absolutely love to find some cute tank tops like this for my spring/summer routine!

http://shop.lululemon.com/products/clothes-accessories/women-tanks/Run-Back-On-Track-Tank?cc=4586&skuId=3447413&catId=women-tanks

Code Orange Revival

January 14, 2012

What a beautiful week it has been. Casey and I have been blessed with work and have also been given flexibility to attend our church’s 12 night Revival that kicked off this past Wednesday. Casey and I attend Elevation Church in Charlotte, NC and have been blessed in so many ways in and through this church. Our Pastor Steven Furtick has invited 12 world renowned pastors to speak to us, each on their own night. What an amazing experience! This is offered free through the church and will continue through next Sunday. So far, we’ve listened to Pastor Craig Groschel from Oklahoma, Jentzeen Franklin from Georgia and last night, Matt Chandler from Texas. Tonight and tomorrow morning will be Christine Caine from Hillsong Church and then Perry Noble tomorrow night from South Carolina.

Something incredible that we’ve experienced through this event is the sheer excitement people have for a movement of Christ. I, myself, arrived at church on Wednesday afternoon at 4pm and stood in line for 2 hours before the doors opened and then another hour before the service began. When they opened the doors of the church people were actually rushing through to get a seat inside. What an amazing sight! An 1100 person theatre filled in less than 10 minutes. During worship, you could turn around and see 1100 people with their arms raised to receive Christ, singing as loud as their voices would allow. How can you not get excited about that?

Me, personally, I am tired of hearing the newest trend from our newscasters on the five o’clock news. I don’t care what the Kardashians are up to now, nor do I want to fit in to what others say is right and wrong. I know who I am in my heart and I know that God has a purpose for my life and our culture’s expectations do NOT match that of my heavenly Father’s. Why would I want to spend another minute worrying about how I don’t fit in with those that are considered “Varsity” when I can begin living a life that my Father delights in.

Many people will hear 12 night Revival and think, “Bless your heart” but I can already feel God working in our lives, family and our marriage after only 3 nights… so I can’t wait to see what happens in the coming week. This is a new year and a new chance to change our views of life and start aligning our desires with those of God!

Check out www.elevationchurch.org for more information on Elevation Church and the Code Orange Revival that continues through January 22^nd.

Open & Honest

As I sit at my computer tonight, my mind is all over the place… in a good way, I guess. Here recently, I can’t get my mind to slow down. Between my “to-do” list and my “want” list it’s pretty hectic in here.

I was thinking earlier in the week, how much responsibility I have acquired in the past year. 2 years ago, I was a “single”(meaning in a serious relationship, but not married) girl whom lived at home and had zero bills, other than my gas tank. I spent money on what I wanted and had very few “duties” in life. Sitting here, now, my list seems to grow continuously and I must say I love it. Yes, it’s stressful but also fulfilling. At the top of my list, there’s one “responsibility” that will never get old or tiring and that’s being a wife to an amazing man. There’s never a day that goes by where I don’t thank God for giving me my husband. If you haven’t met him, you should and if you have, you know what I am talking about. He impresses literally everyone he knows and he will do whatever he can to help you out. I consider him a treasure in my life and I hope to be his wife for many, many, many years.

Something else that I have noticed in the last few months; is just how much I have changed as a person. I used to think getting old, or growing up would bring boredom or stress but now I’ve seen that it’s made me more of an individual. The older I get, the less I care what everyone thinks and the harder I work for what I want. I have also noticed that instead of trying to fit into a cookie cutter mold that others have made for me, I bend it every chance I get. Growing up, I was a people pleaser, and that brought nothing but trouble. Whether it was my parents, my friends or boyfriends, I wanted everyone (and I mean everyone) to be happy with me and if they weren’t it’d keep me up at night. Now, I’ve learned whose opinion is important and I realize that God is the one I need to satisfy.

As I get older, some of my interests change while others are amplified. I feel more freedom and a bit more wind under my wings to accomplish my dreams. I hope I remember these feelings, several years down the road so that I can encourage my children to follow their desires, not the desires of others. Ever since Casey and I knew we’d spend our lives together, I have tried to write down or keep track of experiences that changed me as a person, wife or (future) mother so that I can make a difference. I hope I continue to grow and change over the years; continue to weed out the wrongs and nurture the rights so I can be the best wife, daughter and mother. Really, I think that’s what we all want in life, it’s just the journey that can distract us from that dream.

Garden Success

This is my third year attempting to garden in the spring/summer. The last two years, my garden was substantially smaller and I started everything from plants. Since I live in Marshville, NC now and had a bit more room for a garden, Casey helped me create cultivate this rocky soil and I planted everything from seeds. I'd been too nervous before to plant seeds but had found that many people had better success with seeds than plants. I wasn't sure what was going to happen consider our soil and this being my first year planting seeds.It hasn't all been a success. I tried somethings that were planted too late and couldn't harvest from them. I also tried a few vegetables that were casualties of the tiller. I ate up some pepper plants and a watermelon vine with that earlier in the month. I also began to get aggravated with my tomato plants that weren't growing very quickly and decided to pull them up since we don't eat them anyways. Over the past month or so I had tweaked and replanted certain vegetables, i'd heard worked better out here in this Marshville soil.

So, as of now, I have beans, zucchini, squash, cucumbers, watermelon, corn and sunflowers which all have done wonderfully. I walked out into the garden a few nights ago just to check on things and found growing vegetables everywhere. After, doing a happy dance, I decided I would spend some time weeding and harvesting today. So, today, I harvested cucumbers and zucchini for the first time ever! I'm hoping to eat some of my success tonight for dinner! I started out as someone whom wanted to take a crack at this love/hate relationship(gardening) and over time have learned more and more about what not to do and now I can say that I have a healthy, green, flourishing garden!

One Year down.....

Broken Open

On our way home from the beach yesterday, I couldn’t help but stare out the window and think… think about the things that I should spend more time thinking about. Yesterday marked our one year wedding anniversary, that’s great! We made it a whole year without any big blow out fights and we found ourselves more in love with one another yesterday than the year before standing at the altar…but what does that mean for this coming year. Do we celebrate our marriage one day a year? Aren’t we supposed to work at this every day?

My goal last year as we said our vows was to be the best wife I could be that year. I wanted to learn from those around me. I wanted to learn how to be the woman that my husband needed me to be. I wanted to make a home that he would cherish. I wanted to create a sanctuary for us to come home to every night. Did I reach my goal? Sort of… I am definitely not the best wife, I make plenty of mistakes on a daily basis and I most certainly have not created the “cleanest” sanctuary in this house, but I feel that I have spent a lot of time this past year growing… as a person and as a wife.

A piece of scripture that has continually resurfaced in my mind as I have gone through this past year is Proverbs 27:15-16.

“A quarrelsome wife is like the dripping

of a leaky roof in a rainstorm;

restraining her is like restraining the wind

or grasping oil with the hand.”

Am I a quarrelsome wife? Have I ever been? Oh yes… too many times. Why do I let myself get to that point? Why do we let society influence our choices and decisions as wives? Do I really want to follow Kim Kardashion as a mentor on how to be the best wife? It’s so easy to get caught up in the news and gossip and before you know it that is how you are making your decisions or how you come up with your excuses. I started thinking, how did I come up with my husband’s expectations or the standards that I hold him to? It’s pretty insightful, when you stop and look at the way you’re thinking about things.

So, what are my goals for this year? I want to involve God in every aspect of our life. I want to create a sanctuary at home and a home at our church. I want to build up my husband every day and make sure that I do everything to keep from tearing him down. I want to grow as a Christian woman which in turn will help me grow as a Christian wife. I want to surround us with “elevating” people. I want to keep negative people from distracting me and my goals. I want to reflect on this coming year, next year this time and say, “Man, what an amazing transformation we’ve come through” and I want to give all the glory to God!

Last year was all about me; how I was as a wife; how I was doing as a newly married woman in a new home and new career. This year, it’s all about God in our marriage and how we can flourish because of that.

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Vows may be spoken once but they’re kept forever. . . .

Casey, from the first time we met, I knew it wasn’t by chance. It was as if I could look into your eyes and see my future. Over the past three years you have taught me how to love someone by loving me. You make me feel safe and courageous. You allow me to be myself but encourage me to do my best. When the world is crashing around me, you give me the strength to conquer my dreams. And you make me feel as if I am the only woman on earth when you hold me in your arms. So today, I become your wife and from this moment forward I promise to love you the way you love me and to work as one to build a life together we will cherish for the rest of our lives.

The night before our wedding I wrote these vows. The next day I would make a promise to Casey in front of God, our family and our friends. This weekend we celebrate our first year of marriage. People told us that it would be the hardest one. I don’t believe that for a second. People also told us that it would fly by. That has been proven. I find myself thanking God on a daily basis for this beautiful life I have been given with such an amazing man. I couldn’t have been blessed with a better husband or best friend to share life with. I think that it’s important to look back on our vows this weekend and remember that day.

Weekend at the Beach

Two weeks ago, Casey and I headed down to Myrtle Beach, SC with two of our best friends for a weekend getaway. We couldn't have asked for better weather and a nicer way to relax for a few days. Our only problem was a itchy case of sunburn!

We left home around 6 pm on Friday night and

drove down to the condo. We spent the evening getting settled into our new home for the weekend and went to bed pretty early. Saturday we spent the majority of the morning out on the beach, slowly roasting(not to our acknowledgement) and then cleaned up for some "putt-putt" and an evening on the Myrtle Strip. Down on the strip we went to dinner at Jimmy Buffet's new restaurant, "Land Shark" and went for a sunset ride on the brand new "Sky Wheel" which is now the largest ferris wheel on the east coast that tops out 20 stories in the air. It was my very first ride on a ferris wheel and it sure made for a beautiful first. The new wheel was covered in LED lights that began to light up right before sunset; just when we were getting on to ride!

Sunday we spent some quality shopping time at the Tanger Outlets, stocked up on some new clothes and headed home to begin our new work week. It was a short weekend trip but a great one at that. I'm hoping we get to make another trip down very soon!

Everyone needs a little lift...

Over the past few weeks, whether, it be in a church sermon, on the radio or in the current book I am reading; I have come across this scripture repeatedly. I saw it for the first time last month and it has had an affect on me every since. I thought it might make someone's day a little easier or give someone a new perspective.

"Therefore it if there is any encouragement in Christ, if there is any consolation of love, if there is any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and compassion, make my joy complete by being of the same mind, maintaining the same love, united in spirit, intent of one purpose. Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others. Have this attitude in yourselves which was also in Christ Jesus, who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped... He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. For this reason also, God highly exalted Him(Philippians 2:1-6; 8-9).

Sweet Southern Summertime

I absolutely love this time of year. Granted, this week has been extremely hot with very little rain which has not set well with my garden, but I still love the feeling of a hot sun. The only bad thing about this time of year is that while I spend very little time indoors, when I do, I want to create project after project. I literally, come up with my yearly to-do list in the months of May and June. I'm not sure what it is but I seem to be more interested in working around the house, indoors and outdoors while also more motivated to create new decor in our home.

I recently found a website/blog that I have fallen in love with and this stay at home/yet working mom has inspired me in so many ways.

http://jonesdesigncompany.com/

So... my next 2 projects are our laundry closet and kitchen nook....

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As we approach our one year anniversary, I have been looking back on this first year and determining my big lessons learned. Something that I remember talking with Casey about repeatedly, was having a 50-50 marriage. I wanted a partnership; a marriage where everything was split down the middle. Whether it be yard work, house work, cooking, laundry, errands; the list goes on and on. However, as our marriage got rolling, I began tweeking little things. I started to feel bad that my husband was working 14 hour days, Tuesday through Saturday in the fall, spring and summer while I worked three/12 hour shifts all week. So, I picked up extra on house work, laundry and cooking. I also felt bad for wanting Casey to go 50-50 when he was working the most and paying literally, all of our bills. I have a great job that I love and I do work 36 hours a week; however, the paycheck I bring home can only handle my gas and our groceries. So, over the past year I thought I had figured out how our marriage would work. When Casey was busy with work, I would pick up extra in all the areas I could; while when I was busier at work and he had time off in the winter, he would do the same for me. Little did I know, my philosophy was totally wrong.

Recently, our church began a series called Mr. & Mrs. Betterhalf. Immediately, Casey and I were estatic because we've been craving any type of relationship/marriage advice during this first year. We had so much support and assistance leading up to the wedding that we didn't know what to do when suddenly we "are" married and now have to tackle these issues for real. Throughout this series at church, we've gotten a lot of insight on how a relationship works and how a proper, Christian marriage is managed. During week 2 of our series, the Pastor's wife was talking about the relationship between husband and wife and the relationship between a Christian and God. She spoke about how in Christian marriages, we are required to give 100 percent all the time. It's not a 50-50 game. You can't give 50 one day and then expect your husband to pick up the other 50. As a Christian wife, I am required to be 100 percent in my marriage and in my relationship with Casey all the time. Whether it's been a busy week at work, or I am just a little lazy one day; I am suppose to give him 100 perecent, just as God intended for Christian marriages. At first, this was a little overwhelming. Do I have the energy to give 100 percent? What if he doesn't give 100 percent? Sounds like a lot of work all the time and I may not get 100 percent from him all the time.

Shortly after Holly Furtick spoke about giving 100 percent instead of 50-50; she talked about how in our relationships we try to gage whether or not someone else is doing what's right and wrong. You know exactly what I am talking about. The coworker who slacks off constantly and still gets paid the same amount; the family member whom only calls when they need something or the spouse whom would rather spend 2 hours infront of the television instead of spending that time with their children. We always find ways or reasons to decide when everyone else is making mistakes and rarely look at ourselves. Holly's way of putting it: "You be Jesus, Let God be God." We're not in control and we were not given the job to gage other's rights and wrongs. We're just asked to give 100 percent in our own lives and not to worry about everyone else. What makes you think that while God is working in you, he won't work in your spouse?

So, one of the biggest lessons I have learned over the past eleven months is that even though I thought 50-50 was the best way for us to run our marriage, it's much better for both of us to commit to 100 percent. Of course, we'll have times of trial and situations where it will be harder than others, but I would much rather say at the end of the day that I gave it my all, 100 percent all the time.

Spring Fever March 31st

Spring Fever

April is my favorite month of the year; especially when Easter comes late. To me, Easter is like Christmas; you celebrate Jesus Christ with family and friends and enjoy one another’s company but without all the gifts! I also love all the spring color and all of nature’s blooms. Although, I must admit I am not a fan of pollen. April brings spring which brings riding in the car with the window down, fresh picked flowers, fresh cut grass and pulling all of my bright dresses out of storage. It’s time to get a new pedicure with some colorful polish and to bring out the funky jewelry again. I personally love going to Church Easter Sunday and seeing all the beautiful little girls in their Easter dresses.

I am also OCD which means Spring Cleaning! This is the time of the year where I literally tear the house apart and clean from top to bottom and in to out. I move the couch and all the rugs. I also clean out the closets and the cabinets. Spring cleaning also allows time to change out dreary fall colored fabric, towels, décor and replace it with bright, cheerful, crisp colors. A dear family friend of ours just bought us a white, pottery style cake stand and I cannot wait to see what this piece will bring in our kitchen. We keep our “wedding cake” stand on our table year round so I am thinking this stand will hold desserts! I have some Pineapple/Pina Colada cupcakes in the cabinet I have been dying to make!?!

The one thing that April brings that I am not fond of is bathing suits! This year I bought 1new bathing suit instead of 5 and I bought a style that I don’t normally wear. Casey and I saw it in Aeropostale and it’s a beautiful dark blue/purple hue that fell in love with. However, by no means am I in bathing suit wearing shape so this was my one purchase to get me going. We’ll see how this plan works out. Even last year when we were getting married, I didn’t work very hard to drop weight, so I will be excited to see if I can get my body where I want it.

Lastly, April 22^nd brings my birthday. Growing up our birthdays were BIG. We didn’t spend a lot of money but we spent a lot of time planning and thinking up what we wanted to do to celebrate. Up until last year, I kept that tradition. I guess after 21, the number just puts a downer on everything. Yet I must admit, working in the job that I do, birthdays are always good things! It’s when the birthdays stop that you have a problem. So… even though I am not excited about turning 23 I will remember that I could “not” be celebrating. To me, the best thing about birthdays is the cake which will be hard to top from previous years. Two years ago, my best friend made my cake and it was a 2 tier pink birthday cake which was phenomenal! I loved having something so personal and meaningful. We’ll see what this year holds… it is my first birthday as a “wife”!!!

Bailey

Missing a good friend. . .

Almost one month ago we had to say goodbye to our puppy Bailey. It was one of the hardest things we’ve had to do. Her passing was sudden and unexpected. She was a 9 month old blue Great Dane that we had brought home this past August. She was just coming out of her puppy stage and really starting to show her true personality. We had noticed that she suffered from seizures for a few months but they were short and rare. However, the weekend that she passed she had suffered several back to back and began one on Sunday that only a Valium injection at the vet’s office would stop. She stayed at Brown Creek Animal Hospital for two days when we made the unfortunate phone call to confirm that it was necessary we come in and put her down. Fortunately we were able to visit with her for a bit before the procedure.

It took a few days to really get over the loss and not get upset every time we passed her empty pin. Our biggest struggle was the reality that she was a dog and we both felt a little dumb for getting so upset. We questioned the truth to our feelings and whether or not we were making something out of nothing. Everyone was really supportive and had nothing but encouraging things to say, yet we still felt a little weird mourning our dog.

What is it about our pets that create this bond? We were with Bailey a short 6 months and yet we cried over her as if she were our family. After thinking about this over the past two weeks I imagine it deals with the consistency of a pet’s love. Relationships between people are determined by the exchange of love and care for one another and with our pets that exchange is a bit more constant. Once you build a foundation with your pet there is an unspoken understanding. Your pet isn’t going to get mad over the house cleaning or the money that you brought in that week. Your feelings toward one another aren’t going to change depending on the season in life. You can always pull up the drive and expect them to come running to greet you and love on you and they’ll always be there for you to love on too. When you get down to it, I believe that’s why there is a true relationship between owner and pet. That’s why we had such a hard time letting go and moving on because we had built that bond with Bailey just like people spend time building bonds with one another.

We miss her personality and also her size. Being a Great Dane she was so much fun to watch grow and run around our house. We plan on getting another Great Dane within the next year and would love another blue female. Great Dane’s are huge but are the biggest love bugs out there. <3

Bailey Smith

May 16, 2010 – March 1, 2011

Spontaneous Getaway

Weekend getaway to Edisto Island

A week ago my mother in law informed us that her friend had a home at Edisto Island, SC that was open this past weekend and she didn’t know if we were interested. So Casey and I jumped on the opportunity to get away for a few days. We made our arrangements and headed out late Friday night. We arrived at our home around 1am and went straight to bed.

Edisto Island, SC is known for family and relaxed living. Life moves slower down there and I loved that fact. We slept in and then got up and made our way to a cute breakfast restaurant called the Seacow. We enjoyed some delicious breakfast and then decided to make our way to a local reptile museum. Along the way we decided to turn onto this road that had a wildlife sign. As we drove down this side road we saw beautiful live Oak trees whose limbs intertwined with one another along the road. At the end of the road was an entryway to a 5,000 acre wildlife preservation which became state owned four years ago. Before that time a local family had owned and operated this plantation as a cotton farm. We continued to drive through the plantation and enjoy the older homes and structures. At one point the plantation opened to a beach walk where visitors can walk a half mile to the beach filled with conch shells. It was certainly one of the most beautiful sites I have ever seen. It’s so wonderful to know people are working to keep nature safe in a world that is continuing to build higher and bigger.

After leaving the plantation we headed back to the beach and ate lunch a great golf course on the island. Then we spent some time at home relaxing on the couch and watching movies. We later walked down to the beach and ate fish&chips at a local favorite. We wrapped up the evening curled up on the couch watching television and looking through old magazines. It was a perfect, relaxing Saturday night.

Sunday we woke up and headed to Kiawah Island and Seabrook. We were a little disappointed because both islands are now private and you cannot visit them unless you are staying but there is a great shopping center where visitors can walk through antique/décor/pottery shops and enjoy a great lunch at King Street Grill. Around 3 pm we started our way home feeling more relaxed and ready for another busy work week.

When Casey and I were first married we made a deal that we would take a trip whether that be a five star vacation or a weekend an hour away every three months. One of my goals as a new wife is to make sure that my husband and I make time to spend together every once and awhile so that we can continue our busy lives at home but still embrace the incredible relationship we share. Thank you so much to Ginger to allowing us to take over her beach house this weekend and share a new beach together!

Friday February 4

Struggles...

Everyone has things in life that they need to work on. No one is perfect. One of my biggest struggles for the past few years has been prayer. I don’t know how it all came about but it’s continued to grow as time goes by. When I was a freshman in college I started an all girl’s support group/small group at Wingate University where we met once a week to pour our hearts to one another and read scripture or watch sermons. We also supported local charities and non-profit organizations out of our own pockets or through fundraisers. You’d think prayer would be pretty easy for a leader of a small group. When Casey and I met it continued to be something that was hard for me. Over the four years that we’ve been together I have never prayer in front of him. It’s like every time we sit down to dinner or pray at our groups my tongue sinks into the back of my mouth and my hands shake. Even in social settings where I was asked to pray or was part of a group prayer, I would keep things short and sweet and “hate” every minute of it. I feel as if the words that leave my mouth won’t carry enough impact or I will stumble and forget where I was going with my prayer.

This week I have made a promise to myself and to God that I will take time away from my “hobbies” aka facebook/twitter and spend that time reading scripture, listening to worship music and talking with God. I know that in order to be the wife, mother and woman that I want to be I need to conquer this fear and begin practicing prayer. I want to feel closer to God and be able to be a part of Casey and I’s prayer life in marriage. So today marks my first day on this quest that will last until next Friday. So far, things have been ok. This afternoon I found myself wanting to check facebook/twitter on my cell phone and knew that I wasn’t going to give in that easily. Tonight I am going to spend a lot of time in my bedroom reading and listening to God talk. I crave the relationship I had with God when I was in college. I had total trust and faith in Him and in my future as a Christian. I know that I am not far from where I want to be but there are some fundamental changes that need to be made in the process. Here’s to learning how to pray and tackling the discomfort of speaking out loud to my Lord and Savior.